"Frankly, I can’t fathom why everyone doesn’t feel this urge to eat, to consume, other people."
When Issei Sagawamurdered, dismembered and devoured Renee Hartevelt in 1981, he was fulfilling a dream 32 years in the making.
In the first grade he noticed a classmates thighs and thought “Mmm, that looks delicious.”
He was always short and skinny, with legs that “looked like pencils.” He blames the media’s representation of Western women like Grace Kelly for sparking his cannibalistic fantasies, equating it with what most people would call sexual desire. Where other people dreamed of bedding these beautiful women, Sagawa dreamed of eating them.
He maintains, however, that he never thought of killing them, only “gnaw[ing] on their flesh.”
In 1981, after repressing his desires for 32 years, they finally got the best of him.
He had moved to Paris to study literature at the Sorbonne, a public research university. Once there, he said, his cannibalistic urges took over.
“Almost every night I would bring a prostitute home and then try to shoot them from behind…” he said. “It became less about wanting to eat them, but more an obsession with the idea that I simply had to carry out this “ritual” of killing a girl no matter what.”
Eventually, he found the perfect victim.
Renee Hartevelt was a Dutch student studying with Sagawa at the Sorbonne. Over time, Sagawa struck up a friendship with her, occasionally inviting her to his home for dinner. At some point, he gained her trust.
He attempted to kill her once, unsuccessfully, before actually murdering her. The first time the gun misfired when her back was turned. Though most would take this as a sign to give up, it only pushed Sagawa further down his rabbit hole.
“[It] made me even more hysterical and I knew that I simply had to kill her,” he said.
The very next night he did. This time the gun fired and Hartevelt was killed instantly. Sagawa only faced an instant of remorse before it turned to elation.
“I thought about calling an ambulance,” he recalled. “But then I thought, ‘Hang on, don’t be stupid. You’ve been dreaming about this for 32 years and now it’s actually happening!'”
Immediately after killing her he raped her corpse and began cutting her open.
“The first thing I did was cut into her buttock. No matter how deep I cut, all I saw was the fat beneath the skin. It looked like corn, and it took awhile to actually reach the red meat. The moment I saw the meat, I tore a chunk off with my fingers and threw it into my mouth. It was truly a historical moment for me.”
Ultimately he said his only regret was that he hadn’t eaten her while she was alive.
“What I truly wished was to eat her living flesh,” he said. “Nobody believes me, but my ultimate intention was to eat her, not necessarily to kill her.”
Issei Sagawa says the reasons behind his cannibalistic tendencies cant be explained or conceptualized.
“It’s simply a fetish,” he said. “For example, if a normal man fancied a girl, he’d naturally feel a desire to see her as often as possible, to be close to her, to smell her and kiss her, right? To me, eating is just an extension of that. Frankly, I can’t fathom why everyone doesn’t feel this urge to eat, to consume, other people.”
Two days after killing Hartevelt, Sagawa disposed of what remained of her body. He had eaten or frozen most of her pelvic region, so he put her legs, torso, and head into two suitcases and hailed a cab.
The taxi dropped him off at the Bois de Boulogne park, which had a secluded lake inside it. He had planned to drop the suitcases in it unnoticed, though several people noticed the suitcases dripping blood, and notified the French police.
When police found him and questioned him, his response was a simple admission.
“I killed her to eat her flesh,” he said.
Issei Sagawa awaited his trial for two years in a French prison. When it was finally time for him to be tried, French judge Jean-Louis Bruguiere declared him legally insane and unfit to stand trial, dropping the charges and ordering him to be held indefinitely in a mental institution.
They then deported him back to Japan, where he would spend the rest of his days in a Japanese mental hospital.
But he didn’t.
Because the charges in France had been dropped, the court documents were sealed — they couldn’t be released to Japanese authorities. Therefore, the Japanese had no case against Issei Sagawa and no choice but to let him walk free.
In 1986, he checked himself out of the mental institution and has been free ever since. Today, Issei Sagawa walks the streets of Tokyo where he lives, free to do as he pleases. A terrifying thought when one hears that the threat of life in prison hasn’t done much to quell his urges.
“The desire to eat people becomes so intense around June when women start wearing less and showing more skin,” he said. “Just today, I saw a girl with a really nice derrière on my way to the train station. When I see things like that, I think about wanting to eat someone again before I die.”
“What I’m saying is, I can’t bear the thought of leaving this life without ever tasting that derrière that I saw this morning, or her thighs,” he continued. “I want to eat them again while I’m alive, so that I can at least be satisfied when I die.”
He’s even planned out how he’ll do it.
“I think either sukiyaki or shabu shabu [lightly boiled thin slices] is the best way to go, in order to really savor the natural flavor of the meat.”
In the meantime, however, Sagawa has refrained from cannibalism. Instead, he’s devoted his time to writing books, most recently publishing his 20th work, titled “Extremely Intimate Fantasies of Beautiful Girls.” The book is filled with pictures drawn by himself as well as famous artists.
“I hope that people who read it will at least stop thinking of me as a monster,” he said.
Not likely, dude.